Day 6.
20th September 2010
End of Chapter 4 on 19th September 2010, 9.50pm.
Chapter 4 is my worst, and most probably, my last chapter of all.
No, I'm not ready for Chapter 5 yet.
Not yet till someone comes into my life and is really true to me.
Was sad these past few days.
Nothing I could do bout it anyway.
Not like I'm God or something.
What is love?
No, I don't know what is love.
I love guys who have money now.
I love guys who can give me what I want.
I don't care about heart anymore.
Humans are so selfish,
Why would they even bother about love?
Money is all one need.
Not love.
Love betrays love itself.

For this 10months 15days,
I tell you,
I have never, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER didn't love you once before.
When I asked for break,
It was out of anger, out of annoyance, out of irritated-ness.
You ought to know me, You should.
You're ALWAYS doubting me for not loving you.
You're ALWAYS doubting me in everything!
ALWAYS!
I still love you, but you just force me to hate you.
I gave you face by telling them not to bash you up when they wanted to.
It's not only me, It's you also.
Patch? Well, if I'll to patch,
Will you say things to hurt me again?
Tell me, Jeremy,
Why did you even leave me when you've regretted it?
On 4th November 2009,
I regretted accepting you.
On 28th September 2009,
I should've seen it coming and accepted him instead.
On 30th September 2009,
I should not fall for you.
On Sec 1 camp,
I shouldn't have met you.
I shouldn't have even talked to you.
After Sec 1 camp,
I shouldn't say 'Hi' to you.
When you tried to get me info of a girl in my class,
because your friends like her,
I shouldn't have told you. I shouldn't have,
Because it only made us closer.
If all of these didn't happen,
I won't have to suffer now.